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what your devwatch means to me:

57%
21 deviants said I'M THE KREW; shit nigga you know me! see you tomorrow same time/same place.
16%
6 deviants said i watch; i'd like to talk more but you seem kinda like a bitch. :|
11%
4 deviants said i'm new; i'm a little shy, that's all, so nice to meet ya!
8%
3 deviants said MOAR FMA! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?
8%
3 deviants said i lurk; i see your stuff, sometimes fave, but don't comment because i never do, on anyone.
0%
No deviants said i rarely glance at your stuff and never comment-- why am i even voting?

old Majors never die... they just stop updating.

Journal Entry: Tue May 6, 2008, 3:25 PM
well guys, it's been a long slow way down. i still came on DA every so often to check on your guys' stuff, but slowly the comments-- even conversational-- disappeared. for the first time in three years, i had an empty inbox for more than a day.

it sent me back to high school DA and coming home to three messages after i'd posted a work, if i was lucky. for the longest time that's actually how i had it. i was a nobody. and even just a few days ago through to yesterday, when i posted new work, the deluge that was present a few months ago was trimmed down to a handful of faithful watchers. after slashing my own devwatch, it's reassuring to know that there're a bunch of you who really didn't give a shit about the fanarts or the whorring or any of that. even after i dropped off the radar for three months and neglected art i'd promised.

so those who stayed (lolol murder by death) i have a... horrible story to tell you.

i think everyone who knows me knows that my life changed drastically in august when i lost my job, and lost touch with my bosses who who were like family to me for three years. i worked somewhere similar for a while, but quit on new year's because i didn't like being treated like a dog and cooking with spoiled meat. fortunately, they'd paid well and i was loaded enough to take a two-month vacation. and in the middle of that seemingly idyllic time, horrible things began to happen.

i won't go into details with my family life and its problems because frankly that's not your guys' business. but i WILL fervently recount the harrowing tale of Valentine's '08.

:lemon: SO WHAT HAPPENED:
i wasn't going to go out, having bought a bottle of vodka and some new art supplies. but a friend of mine was stranded and needed help, so i left around midnight. following events aside, i met someone amazing later that night at my friend's house. i'd met them before, but the circumstances were uh... dire... and fear for my life by virtue of this dude had sort of taken priority over any personal opinions of him, aside from the observation that he was angry and built like a prize fighter.

long story short we paired off and got drunk and had sex. ...and it was good. nevermind it'd been two years since the last time i had. afterward we actually got kinda chatty,and he told me things about myself i never thought i'd hear another person say. wonderful things. painful things. true things. things i'd lie about. he just seemed to know, and wouldn't tolerate me interrupting or making excuses for myself. i cried a couple times, while he talked. i'm always alone, the tough bitch, but i felt so small and safe in the arms of this strong, sexy, capable man. it was like every ideal i had put into someone i had invented for that purpose was suddenly real. and holy shit-- i'd made it with him!

he didn't want me to, but the sun was coming up so i had to leave. i also didn't want to be around when my friend woke up and found us. so i beat it outta there. i was giddy and tired and couldn't wait to sleep and see him again over the weekend.

a few days later i woke up with an itch. i couldn't pee to save the world. it was fireballs. and that's AFTER the ten minutes i had to try to just get ANYTHING out. setting the worst urinary symptoms i've ever experienced aside, i also had the tingles, and a sore.

to answer your question, i lost my fucking mind.

i blew up his phone. first he tried to calm me down, he was the same as before, just telling me it'd been a while for me and i was probably just irritated. he said a lot of rational, caring things. but i persisted, and he started getting cross with me. so i said the most hateful vehement things ever and he finally said them right back, and showed me his bad side again. he kept denying everything. called me a whore. told me i already had it and must've given it to him and that he'd kill me if that was true-- and i knew he could. this was not someone i wouldv'e ordinarily wanted in my life, to say the least.

but i didn't care. i just screamed and swore and spat. eventually he stopped answering. i broke down and fell into a horrible state for the next couple of days. finally one morning, i tearfully confessed to my mother what was going on. she asked about how it'd happened and i couldn't tell her. i couldn't describe the kind person i was so~ in love with for all of four days. i already felt like a whore for knowing myself what i'd gotten into. this was the real world, guys like that are dangerous; they sleep with dozens of women. they share hundreds of needles. and they're not fun to have mad at you.

i'm uninsured, see. so i didn't have a lot of options. i called the health department and got the times for the open clinic. i went, and sat in a room full of sad-faced dominican women and their babies and girls with their pimps and runaways and pill dealers and the like. there were a couple of poor bastards like me there, too. for some reason i'd been given a spanish-language sign-in sheet but fortunately i'm good with that and just filled it out.i was called up three disney movies later and turned in a HORRIFIC urine sample. then some snotty latin nurses took like eight vials of blood out of me while they chatted and i held my own vein tape. about an hour later, a sleepy-looking male nurse with lots of tattoos called me in to see the actual doctor.

"professionally objective" doesn't even describe her, she was very blunt and a little admonishing toward me even. and if there's any confusion, it's bad enough when a doctor who isn't wrist-deep in your panooch has an attitude. she finished up and left to take my samples away, and it was just me and the nurse. he was actually very nice. i started crying and he made me feel a little better. he still had to give me a shot of antibiotics in my left asscheek, but y'know a job's a job. he talked about the possibility of what else it could be, and let me tell you i was a step of ahead of him. if there were ever one time in my life i wish i had syphilis, it was that ten minutes. the doc came back and said as if she could read minds that it wasn't syphilis. i cried again, and she shook her head and smiled and shrugged and said something along the lines of "yeah they all hope it's syphilis don't they? you get a shot and go home and that's the end of it. hahah. it hardly ever is that easy though." fucking bitch! i'm having a meltdown and she's shooting the shit.

at the end of the day, i'd been treated-- not just tested, but treated for gonorrhea, HIV, chlamydia, and herpes. i was taking three pills a day for the next week and given a return date for the 19th of the next month. i began to hope that herpes was ALL... i had... and nothing else would pop up and surprise me when i got my test results. i stopped wearing makeup and going out with friends. i gained a lot of weight. i itched at my burning crotch even when i didn't have to pee. despite reassurance from my parents, who had started feverishly researching every disease and drug to treat it there was, i refused to sit on the couch or anything but this chair or my bed and i was afraid to shower. i stayed on the floor like a dog. i punished myself.

my symptoms finally receded, as they do with that condition, and i was also going broke, so i had to grab a job fast. fortunately that went without a hitch. i got into the grocery store, working in the dairy cooler and stocking shelves like a tool. i wear a nametag and a collared shirt.

my symptoms returned just in time for my birthday on St. Pats. i ate dinner with my family and still hadn't told my sister what was going on. i wouldn't tell anyone until i knew exactly how much i was dealing with and had started long-term medication after my results were returned. that was two days away. i just wanted to tell her then and get it over with.

the drive to the health department on the morning of the nineteenth was fucking brutal. i couldn't even hear music. i was stone. i sat in the waiting room and tired to draw. fortunately results dates weren't as crowded as open clinic, so it was soon. i was called into the office by an old cuban lady with lots of bangly jangly jewelry. she was very warm and grandmotherly though, these people must not've hated their jobs as much as the other shift.

she sat me down and fanned a bunch of papers out on the desk. and then she crossed her hands primly and stared at me for a moment. of course i was already the water works. she smiled and laughed and grabbed my hand and then she said, "jou are a all-clear baby." i almost didn't want to hear it at that point. i was so hardened and resolved and my fucking crotch hurt so bad. all clear?? ALL CLEAR?? no! help me! something is definitely wrong!

she just kept shaking her head, and then she showed me all of the test results. i made DAMN sure my name was on them. everything was negative. i asked how that was possible, and through her thick accent she told me happily that many things can cause eruptions like i'd had, even more severe sometimes. she said it was probably a soap allergy and asked if i shaved. i did. she mentioned also that it could've been a latex allergy, and asked if we'd used a condom. we did, well the first round we did. she said it could everything to do with even the last time a guy took a shower, or what cologne he's wearing, or if the sheets are clean, all of the BOGUS bubble-boy bullshit that crazy-ass germaphobes live in constant fear of, she said was probably what happened. i stood up to leave, and she hugged me and told me to be more careful. i grabbed my pedigrees and left in a daze.

i drove around for hours. my parents were ecstatic about my results as i was. everyone else i told was a little.... meh. they hadn't known. i hadn't let anyone else in for fear of misinformation and shame. no one else really cared. it was horrible. but nothing could change the fact that i was all right... above all else, i was okay. and i was armed with knowledge, insisting that a friend of mine who may have been misdiagnosed (without a blood test) go to the health department and get properly tested for free, and it would maybe improve her life to find out she's all right too. because just by looking at me, my doctor swore i had herpes. and i was bound by law to take the medication by her word. that's all it takes, really. she's a health department doctor, she could've told me i had fuckin smallpox and they could come down on me for endangering society.

i was too coward to call the guy and tell him the news. so i left a text message. i told him he was right all along, and that i was sorry for scaring and insulting him. i was just in a lot of pain. he called back because he'd forgotten who i was, and hung up right after. a week later he called back and apologized. we still talk once a week or so. but i like my distance from him now... and he think he'd rather have his from me... i believe because i'm a "crazy bitch."

so it was a self-wrought tragedy with a personal victory, like my suicide. but already it feels farther away and less meaningful than that. i'm still overweight, i still work a job i don't really like with no hope of a different one, and even though i know everything is all right i still neglect the things that make me happy like art. and as i opened this message, art kind of neglects me. the absence was a very bad PR move on my part. :P but overall, my life really isn't the same. it'll be a while before i'm completely over this i think. even working, i feel so low and worthless. and like i said, my family's been coming apart here and there in the midst of it all.

and even if nobody made it to the bottom of this, it had to be done, and posted. i'd been putting off writing it for so long, it felt like a chore. but it also i think puts the lid on this whole affair. sorry you guys were the last to know. i'm not leaving DA, but i'm not gonna be writing as much in these journs from now on. i don't like it being a huge priority and most people don't bother with them even when they aren't a novel.

end of story, i hope you're all a little less emo now, all right? i mean it's not like YOU got a fucking herpes-lesion infection on motherfucking valentines day. write a song about that.


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:fuzzydemon: NEW KIDZ IN TOWN! - the number of people and associations that have jumped on my bandwagon, hopefully looking for more than FMA garbage:
`taeliac
~JannaLee
*Omega-Warior
~dylanmt
=kat-najera
~MikeXsjado
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:iconafi-club: :iconsocial-syphilis: :iconhomunculii-united: :iconproyecto-loa: :iconanimevectorartists: :icontwilighttoxin: :iconzeah-x-tethebi:

BLOCK'D: integrity itself needs your help!

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 15, 2008, 11:30 PM
:lemon: ART ABUSE - the other day while browsing on my other account, i saw a DD or a popular deviation that i had liked. when i went to the artist's page, i saw something that sets off alarms in my brain. an unimaginative, but starkly immaculate vector art of an anime character. it was Bleach's Gin, from a screenshot. nothing new.

i was instantaneously on the warpath. but for whatever reason, the comments on the work were disabled. odd. so in the deviant's all-"hidden-by-owner" UC thread i posted the link to the Artist Relations article containing the guideline restricting traces. i didn't say a word, it was just the [link] and a straight-faced emoticon.

in response, she emoted a winky and linked me to this article by $realitysquared clarifying the restriction and its exceptions and explaining how it would be implemented. the deviant's intent was to indemnify herself and undoubtedly make me feel foolish or guilty. but i'm not that stupid, and didn't want to argue, so i scanned it and lo and behold i found within the text of the article the very phrasage i was impying with my link to the original guideline. she obviously hadn't read it or thought that i wouldn't bother to read it.

when i when i attempted to reply, i quoted the text directly:

"
Now, tracing and copying do occur; simple coincidence cannot dismiss all cases of similar looking works and this is the situation which is most in need of clarification."

and supplemented with my personal feelings:

"i'm just wary of every screenshot ref i see, especially of those that bear no imported style characteristics or variance that could be attributed to the artist.

and providing it were a perfect reproduction on a clean canvas, the validity of the work as art and its tastefulness are questionable from one audience to an another-- i hope you do not take that as an insult, but rather consider it for a moment. i simply feel that DA should require a new category for art that is wholly derived from an existing work without personal influence in all aspects of the new work, and that it should not be considered fanart which ideally bears a shred of originality-- that is additive, not subtractive, on the artist's part."

i realized then that the deviant had blocked =proyecto-LOA. a little aggravated, i logged into =spark and returned to her page, only to find she had blocked this account as well. while all of her usercomments had been hidden, she left mine and her reply alone in the open as if to make an example of what "dumb ppl" try to "bug her" about while she's just trying to be herself.

now it's a little queer that this lady would hide all of her personal information, disable commentary on a suspicious deviation, and censor all of her usercomments-- to convey an aloof and innocent existence on DA, but have the audacity to single out a questioning comment. you would think someone who really subscribed to that mindset would find such an incident to be really petty and shrug it off. but this kind of behavior is incriminating and ironically quite petty in itself.

so i'm not going to hold an open cattle-call to her userpage and i don't want to instigate flaming or even investigatory pageviews, which i know everyone does when someone posts the userID of a problem deviant.

but if anyone would be kind enough to deliver the body of my message in the form of a note, since she doesn't want to be publicly criticized without having the last word, please note me and i will divulge her userID. don't worry about how many other people might ask do it and just decide not to; i will go with who i can trust not to add too much of their own thought content to the message. i'd rather you didn't at all apart from explaining the context of the note. civilly.

please keep in mind it's not my intent to threaten or humiliate another deviant, and i'm not outright accusing her without a doubt of tracing the image. i don't want to report policy violations on anyone and i only go so far as to make it an issue because DA is being overrun by this sort of thing and it's giving good artists a bad name and bringing fraudulent notariety to artists who practice the behavior.

barring traced work, i wholeheartedly believe in a separate classification for flagrantly derivative or referenced artwork, and would use it myself if it were available. i'm afraid it wouldn't eradicate tracing, which is an excellent practice activity, but it might coax some honesty into the system. at this time, the vector category is the most compromised by this epidemic and as a vector artist it makes me very sad.

if you are in any way opposed to what i'm doing, don't hesitate to let me know. i'd love to have it out. afterall i don't mind yellin' at you guys... :P if we're friends it's probably already happened in both directions. this is just a very hotbutton issue with me, and watching the AVA get PV'd a hundred and ten times and seeing screenshot "remasters" in the DTF's four days a week should make anybody angry if they try hard at what they do.


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:fuzzydemon: NEW KIDZ IN TOWN! - the number of people and associations that have jumped on my bandwagon, hopefully looking for more than FMA garbage:
`taeliac
~JannaLee
*Omega-Warior
~dylanmt
=kat-najera
~MikeXsjado
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:iconafi-club: :iconsocial-syphilis: :iconhomunculii-united: :iconproyecto-loa: :iconanimevectorartists: :icontwilighttoxin: :iconzeah-x-tethebi:

oh you faggoty fucks.

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 27, 2008, 4:33 AM
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go, already!
jesus.
related to that ire, i'm doing a little spring cleaning around my devwatch. there is a staggering majority of people who don't participate in my personal project but for SOME reason, that can only be explained by my own disorganization, i still get their art in my inbox because i added them years ago in response to a wayward DD or regrettable high-traffic FMA fanart that represents me in no way whatsoever. come on guys, dead watches? the account is only a year old. that's pitiful and a total insult especially if you frequent what i submit to this account. call me demanding; i'll agree with you.

granted i won't be exiling people who produce art i really like but are either A) too famous to care or 2) really great friends of mine despite their persistent efforts to piss me off by ignoring the existence of my (essentially more valid than this one) project account.

i don't post often, hencely submissions from spark and the =proyecto-LOA should be considered for all intents and purposes to be from the same account. i'm fully aware that DA is a sad place for drama, especially that which CONCERNS DA, but i'm not leaving in any sense, this is just another plug. i'd honestly rather get the extra exposure than cut contacts with people, i really would.

also cast to the void are various dead and banned and boring accounts, and people who haven't come by here in years upon whom my mutual +watch is mysteriously still in effect. anyone else, no hard feelings. i want my exposure to reflect my work, not what TV shows i like or how much ass i can kiss online. the numbers are meaningless if the appreciation is false; after five years on DA i'd much prefer a small close following to a large estranged one.

in light of this, i've indefinitely canceled the pending 10FS additions until i've sorted out the devwatch issue. there is ONE person who hasn't received their free art yet who actually deserves to through their consistent and friendly maintenance of our association on DA. they know who they are. and if they don't, they can ask.

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as far as my personal life goes, i finally went broke prematurely after a bank notice arrived to claim my remaining hundred dollars. the good news is my old boss is reopening AT LONG LAST and i've also pulled down a job at the grocery store in the interim.


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:fuzzydemon: NEW KIDZ IN TOWN! - the number of people and associations that have jumped on my bandwagon, hopefully looking for more than FMA fanart:
~UltimteKeybladeMastr
~The-vizard
~Golden-Chicken
*SeigneurRuei
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:iconafi-club: :iconsocial-syphilis: :iconhomunculii-united: :iconproyecto-loa: :iconanimevectorartists: :icontwilighttoxin: :iconzeah-x-tethebi:

MOAR WEIRD + sad + hopeful

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 6, 2008, 12:49 AM
HEY ASSHOLES. THE GIANTS BEAT THE FUCKING PATRIOTS. so much for your perfect season. i mean holy damn! amazing fourth quarter. but that's how they roll.
that night was the most fun i've had in a while. now if only the Yanks could take October... :P an please, respectfully withhold any "i don't watch sports cuz their stoopid" comments. i was seventeen and wore black once, too. then i got over myself.

i will say, worst commercials ever. recycled from last year, even. tsk tsk. :no:

:lemon: WHOARFEZT II: EIGHT WEIRD FACTS ONE YEAR LATER - HFC AGAIN. you know the rules. so forget them. eight weird facts about but not limited to me, no recourse; but if you're inspired to do this yourself by all means, credit me with copious avatar pluggage. sample pluggage:
TAGGED BY
:iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy::iconandrogynous-envy:
frankly this round is a little less enthralling than the first time i got tagged for this meme, before the number was increased from six to eight facts. THAT one is where the good dirt on me is. [link] i ran out of interesting topics because in all actuality i didn't leave much out and haven't changed much in a year.

i enjoy all edible parts of a creature, living or dead, preferably not human, preferably some sort of sealife. eyeballs and spinal cords are novelty favorites.

i eat grapefruit peeled, segmented, skin-on. sometimes i eat too much and get the old dire-rear... but who the fuck cares i'll outlive you by fifty years. typically i steal this grapefruit from my neighbors' yards. no one has put up a fence yet. lemon or lime rinds however i find edible and very tasty.

love ketchup, hate tomatoes. also hate milk but crave ice cream 24/7.

i have a horrendous oral fixation and must constantly be either eating, smoking, chewing gum, or chewing ice. hence half of this meme's relevance to food items. i smoke about a pack a day but my most prevailing health concern is being a hypochondriac.

i firmly believe that post-secondary education in this country is a cash scam. Educational Institutions my ass; business is business, and the business of telling people they can't do something UNLESS they buy your product/service is as old as i am jaded. FUN FACT: i believe the same thing about the mental health system. and before your rebuttal, i have been cycled through both.

Law of Averages started in 2002 as a setting for SiLicon Half omake, where Jen and the other S/2 characters convened with myself as Director and Overlord in an official setting and were subjected to my wrath for their shortcomings. that is where the notion of numbered LOA characters' (those based off of real-life friends and acquaintances) treatment as indentured set workers and lackeys originated, and evolved into a somewhat nicer (if still martial) society. my best friends who inspired Sixtynine, Sixtyten, and Forty have accounts on DA (:iconjamierocket:, :iconwaltflanagan:, :iconcasim:), and Thirtyfive's counterpart is a dominating presence in my old photo submissions (second only to me). we haven't spoken in three years.

i hate video games. with a passion the world has yet to experience. all right, all right, i'm not totally inhuman; i hate everything that came after the SNES with few scattered exceptions (3).

THE HOT LIST: Davey Havok, Sascha Konietzko, Bettie Page, Motoko Kusanagi, Johnny Knoxville, Josh Duhamel, Jon Benjamin.
THE NOT LIST: did you know that Masamune Shirow looks like a fish? he's like an Asian Michael Moore.


:lemon: THE LIVING - i'm finally nearing the end of employment hiatus. well i'm not, but my money is.

i have my car insurance for the month paid in advance, two job applications currently in processing, a possible 'in' with my dad's job (gratitude which words cannot express), and an account on a Florida job board gushing with my high school records and employment history highlights. too bad i don't want to do art for a living or work for another restaurant, or the damn thing would work like a charm. thankfully there are a lot of entry-level assembly and machining jobs in this area, and even a few that offer training.

it's also really too bad that i didn't decide to use the internets to search for a job until i was so low on cash. two weeks ago i could've had this done; it is really requiring no effort and i might've had a job by now and be a little more carefree.

i did iron out some of the problems with my friends at little expense, but it was shared; we will both stop talking about one another. but i only agreed under the clause that no apologies would be exchanged. i did nothing, and i refuse to forgive or indemnify her-- or anyone. as long as we got that straight, i can say hello and be friendly when we encounter one another. just no one get the crazy idea that i let shit like that get past me and no one has to be responsible. so much is over now and it can't come back; just like that, through someone else's actions.

:lemon: SOMEBODIES - years ago my mother and i came very close to collaborating on an important project, but i got cold feet and backed out because i didn't feel i was talented enough. she was crushed and actively held it against me for a few months. i was not in a good place. eventually the whole affair fell by the wayside as i started high school and other things were going on.
well this year, for her birthday, i wanted to finally own up to the task and finish this project with her. save for my crappy-ass predesigns, she kept the original plans and having those to work from we are going to make a children's book together. my mother works with children under three with disabilities and before that, kids of all ages. the book is about responsibility around the home and consequences of neglecting them.

now you guys are my only audience so far... so i'm lucky there's even as many of you as there are. i'd like to ask you to keep an eye out for concepts i put together. as fellow artists, your opinions and advice are extremely valuable and as friends and not family, i know you can be objective. :nod: i'm not sure how much of the project my mother wants secret until completion, but i'd love to share what i can.


that's about everything... this was a pretty quick update, for me. but things are looking a little more hopeful. i'm still alone, still sweating money problems. and there are things that i will miss. things that a little reconciliation can't repair between myself and other people involved. but that's why i'd rather forget than forgive.



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The crowd on the street walks slowly; don't mind the rain.
Lovers hold hands to numb the pain,
gripping tightly to something that they will never own.
And those by themselves by choice or by some reward;
No mistakes-- only now you're bored.
This is the time of your life but you just can't tell.

I heard it's cold out, but her popcicle melts;
she's in the bathroom, she pleasures herself,
says I'm a bad man, she's locking me out--
It's 'cause of these things...
Let's make a fast plan, watch it burn to the ground.
I try to whisper, so no one figures it out.
I'm not a bad man, I'm just overwhelmed--
It's 'cause of these things...
It's 'cause of these things...


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:lemon: FREE SKETCHES PENDING: - deadline, December 2008
*DemonShuriken87 my take on the Dragon woman
~BillyJ of Jala the Desert Queen
~senor-freebie of his character from Bad Hair Day
~waltflanagan someone from Social Syphilis
*my-twisted-logic of Romulus
=Nix0xiN of hersex i mean self, in Eden-style
*Self-InFiction of Outlaw from Dredgewater Knights
~Nari-The-Death-God of Nari
~uninsomnia of herself, in Eden-style


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i mean really guys.